Undecided....

So I stopped blogging for quite some time because truthfully????, I was feeling a little creeped out by the whole thing!! I dunno.....complete strangers reading about MY life?!?!?! Anyhow...I've decided to pop back into the wonderful world of blogging because quite simply.......I miss you guys!!!!! Hopefully I won't be freaked out again and go back into hibernation cuz I love reading your blogs and seeing what's going on in your lives!!! You guys ROCK!!!

Walking Withdrawl

Ugh!!! I missed my daily scheduled power walk this morning and let me tell ya......It's eating away at me!!!!! My workout buddy hurt her knee and wasn't up to going out this morning, and yeah, I could have went, but I started cleaning the house and doing the laundry, and then before I knew it 2 hours had gone by. The guilt is eating away at me, so I'm definetly going to get some excercise in today at some point so I don't go CRAZY!!!!!

   I'm in a real mood today. No particular reason, other than I feel kinda frustrated that I'm not always able to do the things that I want to do, when I want to do them!!!! Selfish?!?! Maybe, but hello....I work my butt off at work, worry about making everyone around me happy and then I'm left feeling a little bit ticked that no one seems to care that I have things that I want to do!!!!!Whatever...that's life I guess!!!!
Guess I really do need that exercise to get those "happy" endorphins pumping through my body!!!

Weight Loss Week 1

..So I've FINALLY had enough of procrastinating and putting off getting in shape!!! I know I've done this like a million times..ya know....start, stop, start, stop, but the difference this time?!?!? I have a workout partner that is as motivated as me!!!! This really helps!!! I've set a mini-goal of losing some weight before Thanksgiving weekend, which since I'm in Canada, is in about, oh, I'd say 5 weeks give or take. I'm not looking to drop major weight by then, but I'd love to be starting to feel comfprtable in my own skin.

   I decided that having a "target outfit" would be helpful in keeping me on track, so I bought this awesome sweater and I have a pair of jeans in mind as well that I'd like to look half decent in. My Hubs thought that I was crazy in putting this kind of pressure on myself, but if I don't.....I'll give up to easily. I also started taking some Green Tea/Apple cider vinegar capsules. Apparently they are very helpful in achieving weight loss, that is, if you are exercising and eating a healthy diet along with it (which I am).

   So there you have it folks!!! I've now informed you that I'm going to DO THIS!!!!! So now I really can't fail because I wouldn't want to have to write a post about that, now would I?!?!?!?!

A surprise for the Hubs!!!

 So I have today, tomorrow and, well, the whole long weekend off!!! Yay for me!!!! But the Hubs???, he has to work today and tomorrow still. To say that he was a tad jelous is a slight understatement, but ya know what?!?!?! I'm going to make it worth his while!!!

  I got up early this morning (when I could have lounged in bed for as long as I wanted) and cleaned the house, changed the bedding and washed our duvet cover and shams. Then I plan on making a special spaghetti sauce with spinach, peppers and some other great veggies in it for our dinner, and, oh...did I mention the yummy garlic bread to go with it???? I think (no, I KNOW) he'll love it!!!!

  I even made sure that some of his favourite beer is still in the fridge cuz ya know that your man will be thankful for a "cold one" after a long day at work!!!! I may even *ahem*....crack out the "nice" undies for him to ogle and appreciate!!! Hahaha.....I know...to much info, and it's not that I wear hideous undies on a daily basis, I just go for comfort more often than not. So, just for him, I'll wear the ones that usually stay tucked in the back of the drawer for special occasions!!!!

  He'll be a happy camper when he comes home!!!! House smells (and looks) great, food to be eaten, beer in the fridge....what else could a man want?!?!?!?!?!?!

Feeling Thankful!!!!

....Huh, well...for some reason the word "thankful looks like it's spelled wrong to me!!!! Is it?!?!? I'm not sure!!! Do you ever have that happen..ya know, where you've spelled the word like a billion times but this one time it looks totally wrong?!?!?!? Oh well.....let me know if it is cuz I can't figure it out right now!!

   So I'm feeling pretty thank-ful today...like, I'm REALLY lucky for alot of great things in my life and I just thought that I should point some of those things out b/c I'm sure that I don't say it enough!!!!

   So here it goes......
- I am so lucky to have a husband that loves me unconditionally each and EVERDAY!!!! I'm always beautiful in his eyes and that means the world to me!!!

- I have great friends....especially my one friend whom I know is always there for me and never judges me....she ROCKS!!!

- I have the most awsome step-daughter!!! She is my world!!! She is so respectful and caring and super, super smart!!!!! She ROCKS to!!!!

- I have a really great job..(not fun or anything) but stable, well paying and with full benefits!!! I have nothing to complain about!!

- I can usually get what I want when I want..and not in a bad way!!!!! Our bills are always paid, things taken care of and I am still lucky enough to be able to splurge on myself (and my hubs and girlie) whenever I want!!!

- I have awesome hair..o.k....it looks pretty crappy lately, but really??? my hair will do whatever I want it to, and I love that!!!

-  I love that I am someones wife and step-mom!!!!! I am inportant to them and play an important role in their lives and they let me know that I matter!!

    These are just a few things that I'm so Thankful for!!!!!! Sometimes you just have to step back and take a look around!!!! It's a good life!!!!

                                                    My Loves!!!!!!!!!

"Yadda,Yadda..."

     Well.....life is kinda at a standstill right now. Work is.....well, work. My body is still packing on weight and bloating out in E-V-E-R-Y direction and my knee still aches. Yep...fun eh???? We were looking at houses like crazy people and even found 2 that we really loved, but then one night I was laying and bed and had this little niggling feeling that I just couldn't shake....what was it you ask?!?! Well......I didn't want anyone else living in MY house!!!! Is that totally strange???? I dunno....we've put alot of ourselves and our hearts into this house AND redone it from top to bottom!!! But maybe, just maybe if our dream house pops up, those feelings will go away.

   Aside from those "thrilling" things.....nothing to exciting. My Bff's baby girl is as precious as ever and I cannot wait to hold her again!!!! Babies ROCK!!!! Life is really, truly great and looking at this precious little girl reminds me of that. I may complain about my woes, aches and pains and many other things but hey, I'm human!!!!  Just gotta make the best of it and deal with what you are given!!!

It's time to get R-E-A-L!!!!!

   I've been thinking alot about my (old)BFF.....we've been friends for quite awhile and we used to do alot together and talk to each other.....but lately???? Nothing. When we do talk (which is so very rare), there just isn't anything to talk about. I mean, she's a great person, but I'm finding that she's become a little "snobby". She travels all over with her hubby, which is great...and she has a killer body that she works really hard on, which is also great, but she's sooooo judgemental about others. She picks apart what people wear, or how big they got while pregnant....(not cool.......your bringing another life into the world.) I jsut don't feel that we have anything in common anymore. I don't think she's ever ONCE made me a prioroty...even when I was going through the worst of the worst. Isn't that what true friends do?!?!?!

    Maybe I'm wrong, or maybe I'm the one who has changed...o.k...I know I've changed, but for the better!!! I used to be a more selfish person, but not any longer. Life is way to short to be that way!!! I'm just not sure if it's worth remaining friends anymore. I want to be around positive people...people who won't be looking at my muffin-top with disgust!!!!! I don't know what to do. Guess I'll ponder it for a bit longer and hopefully figure it out.