"Ten on Tuesday"

      O.k....this may be a hard Ten on Tuesday, but here we go!!
   1.   I'm STILL suffering from these damn "baby blues"!!! I hate feeling this way, ya know, bitter, angry, sad.....jelous!!! I really need to find a way to overcome these feelings and get on with life. I will never have children of my own, and that's that!!!
   2.   As I said yesterday, we found a house that we like that comes with lot's of property!! It needs to be all re-done inside, but that's a good thing, then we can do it exactly how we want!! Still waiting on that phonecall about some info. we needed first!!
   3.   I'm feeling really fat. Yeah, I know..we all have those days, but I'm starting to hate looking in the mirror or having pictures taken. I'm on meds. that are making me gain weight at a rapid speed and since my knee was screwed up, I haven't been able to exercise. SO BUMMED!!!! Hoping this will change soon!!
   4.   In regards to the knee thing, I'm off to the doctors yet again today to get the O.K. to go back to work!! (BOOOOOOOO!!!!!). It's kind of dpressing to think about since I do love being at home so much, but I guess I need to get back into some kind of routine, and hopefully start doing some exercise again!!
   5.     I miss our girlie!! I can never say this to much!! I can't even imagine how hard it is for the Hubs not being able to raise his little girl. Things happen, I know, but he's a good dad and I wish with all my heart that he could have more time with her!!(me too, of course!!). Oh well...we just have to try and make the best of the little time that we do get to spend together!!
   6.   I don't think I can take anymore rainy, grey, dull days!!! It's like that today and is supposed to be this way for at least another 2 days!!! UGH!!! I really may have to go to the tanning bed just to make myself feel better!! (after the docs. though or else I will NEVER hear the end of it!!)
   7.   I really need to start drinking more water. I hate drinking it, but since we got one of those water coolers, it's not quite as bad!! I just hate making all those trips back and forth to the bathroom all day...especially at work!! But, it's good for you and your skin, so I guess I better go fill my bottle up and get started!!
   8.   It's about a week and a half till our first wedding anniversary and I STILL haven't thought of a thing to get the Hubs. Maybe we will just have to go for dinner or something....I don't know!! He's a guy....they aren't like us girls who love diamonds and flowers!!! I'll have to get him a new tool or something!!
   9.   My crafting has been on hold since before Easter when I made all that stuff...it's like my brain doesn't want to work and I just can't come up with any thing good!!! EEK!! That's so not like me and it's very frustrating!! I need to make some Mother's Day cards and I just can't come up with anything I like!! I hate when this happens.....I've just got to ride it out till another idea pops into this head of mine!!
   10.   I'm heading out soon to pick up my knee X-rays...whoopee!!! I have no idea what a "normal" knee should look like, but I'm going to take a peek anyways to see if I can see anything abnormal!! I go to the surgeon this Thursday, which I'm now thinking is a waste fo time, but who knows, maybe there really is something going on in there!! I'll let ya know!!