This is something that I've been thinking about for awhile now...why can't we just love ourselves...our faults, weaknesses.....hell, even our stretch marks and saggy "parts"???? Life is so short, so why are we so critical and hard on ourselves??
I know first hand that when you aren't able to have babies, you begin to belittle yourself...tell yourself what a failure you are..and you truly believe that. Now???.... I'm trying to get past that and realize that maybe I'm not such a "failure" after all. Maybe I'm meant for something else....what???? Who knows........the "Big Man Upstairs" has it all figured out!! hehe!!
I know I've gained some weight, and really have no good reason for it, but really???? I have really bad knees...(X-rays to prove it and a visit to the surgeon), which is still not an excuse for NOT exercising!!!! ...A job that varies in every way from day to day that sometimes leaves me REALLY tired and worn out, and I'm just truly busy doing lot's of things...ie: making baby shower invites for one of my BFF'S!!!! ......O.K.....not good excuses....but like I said....Life is SHORT and you only live it once!!
I'm truly going to try and exercise more and eat healthier, but I know that I'll never have the body that I had 7 yrs ago...the one that I had BEFORE I found out that I would never be a mommy. (Yeah...I think, wait...I'm positive that that's played a huge role in my weight gain.....ya know....the sadness+failure= eating ....) It just goes hand in hand!!! But ya know what??? I'm worth having a better body.....a healthier body!!!! I just need to get my body to move..to feel motivated!!! I need all of you out there in Blogland to keep reinforcing me....to let me know that I'm worth feeling good about myself......STRETCH MARKS AND ALL!!!!! haha!!!! I-CAN-DO-THIS!!!!! (with your help of course!!) I think this is how I will find my Self-Love.....through exercise...through the endorphins that will surge through my body....time will tell....just keep me motivated!!!!!
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